I posted this picture, with this quote written next to it the day after my abusive relationship ended.
“That was the day that she made herself the promise to live more from intention and less from habit.”
That day, I promised God I was done with the tug & pull of trying to live my life dancing on the line of my will & His. I was ready to surrender to Him completely.
I had no idea the journey God was about to take me on.
Shortly after the breakup, I began to get extremely sick. I was throwing up at least 3-4 times a day & was spending every day off of work at endless doctors appointments trying to figure out why. I had 14 tests run on me, including a colonoscopy & endoscopy at 30 years old. The end result? I was completely healthy. And I was given an anti-nausea pill prescription & sent on my way.
Small problem: the anti-nausea pill made me feel severely drugged. So I began my journey of trying to solve this on my own. My idea of healthy eating at the time was calorie counting & lean cuisines were my go to choice. So through my research, I started learning about this thing called organic & clean eating. Over time, it slowed the sickness down to 2-3 times a month, which was manageable, at least.
A year later, I realized I really needed to figure out how to fix this, as the unpredictable outbursts of sickness were really affecting my work life as well as my quality of life. I really did not want to be poked or undergo anymore invasive testing, all to come up empty handed again. So I did some research & found a naturopath that was also a licensed MD. After 1 appointment that lasted an hour & 6 months worth of homework, I finally had answers. My body was in complete distress from years of binge drinking, fast food, and the stress my relationship had taken on my body.
So I started my journey of healing my body, as well as my soul.
I felt God calling me to start making some major changes in my life at the beginning of this year. My season of healing was coming to a close & it was time for what was next. The biggest lesson I have learned over the past 4 years is to walk when God says “go” & to stop when He commands me to “be still”.
I have felt God calling me to go back to school to become a therapist for 3 years now, but the timing never felt right. While speaking to a potential client, I learned about a school called The Institute of Integrative Nutrition. I was completely fascinated, as my passion for whole body healing was confirmed during this past role. Through a series of events over the past 6 weeks, God’s plan for what I am meant to do started unfolding rather rapidly.
So when I heard God tell me to “go”, I enrolled & started school. With the shift in focus, it became apparent that the role I was in was not where God wanted my energy to be spent & it was time to close that door. So I am taking a step back in my career to pursue my health coach certification, followed by my BA & Masters in Psychology, with the purpose of opening up a whole body wellness center for women.
The past 4 years have been such a hard journey. And I still have a long road ahead of me. But when I look at that picture, I do not even recognize that girl anymore. It feels like another life. That’s when I’m reminded how far He’s carried me.
When we walk in obedience, God writes more incredible stories than I know to even pray. It’s not my job to know where He’s taking me. It’s my job to walk when God says “go” & to stop when He commands me to “be still”.
And before we know it, we arrive right where He wants us to be.
At the exact perfect time.